To Anna

To Anna, the Little Girl in Me

original poem written on 10/06/10 & shared in group therapy in AZ

 

Unable to breath the peace and joy that God has woven into your soul,

Inside you cried, you screamed and demanded answers

to the abuse that has taken it's toll.

 

I kept you as safe as I only knew how,

I cringe and wince feeling the scars left in you now.

My dear Anna, you didn't deserve all the abuse and to not be loved,

They damaged your soul with a smile and then they just shrugged.

How could evil take over such a precious innocent lamb?

 

Where were you God? I needed your hand.

Protection from the "blackness" was to become part of my walls,

Being small, you created a cover to protect you from all.

That same cover has locked you inside a prison of shame,

You're scared and alone waiting for answers that never came.

 

As they raised their voice to shout, a blank-stoned face looked out,

They were all bad, they did evil things,

Just like scorpions all around you, you took all of their stings.

It seemed as if no one loved you,

Just I....and I couldn't protect you, or we'd both die.

 

I tried to be strong, so I could save you one day,

You are safe now my child, with me you will stay.

I will give you the love that you never embraced,

We will play and have fun, the ugly past we'll erase.

 

When the tears need to come out, you too can cry

My child, you can laugh, smile, and cry anytime at all,

Get angry, face the demons, climb out from that wall!

I will embrace you and sing to you as mothers do,

You're my precious child, and I'll forever take care of you.

Sleep well tonight little girl,

We've got a big day tomorrow,

Rebuilding our life and letting go of the sorrow.

I love you Anna, the little girl in me...

 

 

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